Yes, I cried....alone lying in my bed...should I be ashamed of it? I really don’t know. Should a 32 year old man be ashamed of crying in his bed because he just couldn’t take the pressure that is being bestowed on him? Is it wrong to let one’s feelings out in the form of tears when it becomes too hard to pretend to be strong? Is it wrong to give oneself the freedom to let out the agony, pain and hurt that is life once in a while to feel relieved? I don’t think so...should I be?
The ones I call my family seems so far away and there is nothing to make me feel closer to them anymore...and this bitterness is making me push the only one I truly love...I end up being misunderstood...by everyone!!! The result...tears in my pillow when I’m lying by myself feeling distraught with pain and hurt and helplessness...I wish to have those arms around me and make me feel secure but I seem to have pushed it away this time...
My life is just getting more and more complicated and all I want is to keep it simple...why can’t I ever have a simple life...that’s all I ask...but I get thrown into the dungeons with all sorts of hungry animals that just want to tear me from limb to limb and chew on my flesh as I still stay alive...
Just 5 days in India and this is my state...and I haven’t even reached my hometown yet...well I guess the worst is yet to come...
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