Job Dilemma...

Apart from trying to fill my working week with more part time jobs, missing my home like crazy and having my ass frozen due to the shitty snow in London, I guess I've been doing well enough. In fact, I just began my 2nd job as ABA/VB tutor with a new client through another consultant for Tuesday and Thursday evenings. So all I need right now is one more client to fill in the day times and I'll be good to go. In the past few weeks I was quite confused with an issue, I had given my commitment to one of my client for whom I'm working part-time and then I got an interview call which seemed to be for a full time post. Now the question came, do I switch  my job if I got successful in the interview and dump my current client who basically gave me a job when I was not having any jobs or do I refuse the full-time offer? I made up so many terms and conditions to myself int he end, like unless I get a really better deal for the full-time job, I will not give up my current job. On the other hand it also meant thatuntil I get at least one more job, am gonna struggle financially. So I jsut prayed to God to help me nad guide me. and guess what? I'm not having two part-time jobs and am trying to fill in whatever remaining time with another job. I also attended the interview which wasn't that great to be honest. Now even if by some random chance I got that job, I'm under no pressure to take that job because I've got plenty of flexibility in working independently and almost earn the same amount as an average full time job minus the restrictions. Am glad that my aptience finally ended in some fruitful results.

Well my new Orange San Francisco phone is just awesome. I really am sure that I want to get the HTC Desire Z now because android can be very addictive for a user like me. I did record an unboxing and a small review but felt too shy to upload it cos I thought I looked and sounded silly...but ams till debating that and let's see if I manage to mujster up the courage to upload it!!! Well that's it for now folks.

Here it is...

So, I have finally successfully managed to bring my irregular blog to the front and make it  more regular. The more subscribers I have the more I get motivated to write more. All comments are welcome. Well now that the formality is over, lets see what's been happening recently in my life...

1. I've finally got a part-time job as ABA Tutor which might offer chances for full time work.
2. I've decided to sell my Blackberry and get a basic android phone. Currently I'm looking to buy the Orange-San-Francisco which seems to be a big bang for the buck. Let's see how things go.

I will try to update my blog at least every week if not every fortnightly. I am also planning to do reviews about more gadgets I buy. Hence my first review could be the one for my new phone. Let's wait and see.

Moving to mainstream

Well, it's about time I took the proper step to move my blog to a more mainstream account and hence I've decided to delete this google account and start a new blog from my old and existing google account. I'm gonna go global...well hopefully!!! I know no one's gonna read this even but just to let myself know that I'm doing it all over brand spanking new in a more better way and in a more regular fashion!!! Good luck to me!!!

A whining BIATCH!!!

Yes, that's what I thought when I read my last post. Yes the worst came and the worst left and there was loads of good in all that and the love of my life is still by my side despite me pushing them away...!!!

I keep telling myself that I MUST be more regular in updating my blogs but given the fact that my life is so irregular at the moment, it is hard to get organized...yet!!! Well trip in India went on fine had some fun times, some bad times...and some reaaaallllllly bad times and one particular GREAT time!!! yes, I proposed tot he love of my life and the answer was YES!!! Now I walk around wearing a titanium ring engraved with my partners message and name on it and vice versa!!!

After making several enormous and elaborate plans, the actual proposal happened in the most humble manner I could imagine with just the two of u...but it couldn't have been any better or perfect!!! Now back in London means that I'm missing everything back home really bad but WAIT...if I manage to get a job here for a year or so, then I can go back and settle down with much ease. So plans are on the way for that.

I had an interview at a really nice place and am now on their waiting list...well better than a NO. Taken up training with a social care employment agency and getting some stuff from my contacts. Let's see how this month (November) goes. I have a very strong feeling that by the end of this month I'll be in a job and thanking the Lord above!!!

I'm right now remembering to share some of my pics from India during vacation but not sure if I'll get around to doing it right now, but let's see. Oh and BTW, my latest obsession/craze, etc.... is the HTC DESIRE Z....it's so awesome that it's awesomeness is driving me crazy...it's also expensive...so I gotta wait at least till January to get it which is good 'cos by then any problems in the device would be rectified!!! Well that's about it for this update. Let's hope I make an update real soon with some good news!!!

Tears in my pillow...

Yes, I cried....alone lying in my bed...should I be ashamed of it? I really don’t know. Should a 32 year old man be ashamed of crying in his bed because he just couldn’t take the pressure that is being bestowed on him? Is it wrong to let one’s feelings out in the form of tears when it becomes too hard to pretend to be strong? Is it wrong to give oneself the freedom to let out the agony, pain and hurt that is life once in a while to feel relieved? I don’t think so...should I be?

The ones I call my family seems so far away and there is nothing to make me feel closer to them anymore...and this bitterness is making me push the only one I truly love...I end up being misunderstood...by everyone!!! The result...tears in my pillow when I’m lying by myself feeling distraught with pain and hurt and helplessness...I wish to have those arms around me and make me feel secure but I seem to have pushed it away this time...

My life is just getting more and more complicated and all I want is to keep it simple...why can’t I ever have a simple life...that’s all I ask...but I get thrown into the dungeons with all sorts of hungry animals that just want to tear me from limb to limb and chew on my flesh as I still stay alive...
Just 5 days in India and this is my state...and I haven’t even reached my hometown yet...well I guess the worst is yet to come...

Trying to be regular

Well just like I decided here I am updating my blog sooner than before. Whats happening right now? Well, I've packed all my stuff and just shifted them to Richard's attic today. I have just 2 more days before I get on my place to go back to India. In the mean time, i got unexpectedly hooked on to the TV series Glee. I just totally fell head over heels in love with that series and can''t wait for the second season to begin. I also got my results so far which is not bad and I'm still on Merit level grades. Now if I cold only pull off a kick ass dissertation....hmmm...let's see!!!

Since I feel that not many people are reading this blog, I'm using it as more of a personal journal as well. I've been quietly working on a pet project of creating a web series for you tube. I've got pretty much several stuf covered with my existing contacts. I've got my friend to agree to do music and some songs for it and another friend Harsha to help me with editing. I've got my HD camcorder and all I have to do is write up a mini script and start shooting once I get home. Let's see how things go...dunno when my next blog will be but I'm gonna try and update this at elast once while I'm in India. That's it for now from me!!!

I MUST be more regular...

Well Guess it's almost 9 months since my last blog....lol!!! Man I'm not good at this!!! Well, here's what's been happening so far...

1. I'm now in London.
2. Almost finished with my MSc Applied Psychology course.
3. Currently progressing with my dissertation which is about the attitudes on homosexuality among Indian male students at my University.
4. Working in a really good place mentoring children with autism.
5. Got a BlackBerry.
6. Got a HD Camcorder.
7. Getting ready to leave for India next month.
8. Going to propose to the love of my life when I go to India.
9. Have come to totally dislike living the UK.
10. Want to settle down with my love asap.
11. Mentally working on a BIG DREAM PROJECT. (Will reveal more about it in my next post).

Well that'll be in a nutshell. On the other hand, we're going to sell our house...and am really sad about it but on the other hand, it signals a brand new start for me and my Mom. Well I'm gonna stop with only this much update for the time being, but promise to write more real soon and more regularly!!!

Until Next time...
PRAX!!!